A Wish Come True… August 24, 2007

11:59am August 24th, 2007

Wow, summer’s almost over… Time to get ready for school, again!  I can’t believe that there’s only 11 more days till school.  I hardly remember what I did this summer… (whoops!)  My parents promised to finally go to the night market wtih me tonight <3  Food and goodies here I come ^^  Just a simple 10 days till my 15th birthday…  Another milestone of my life.  Half way to 30 ==  WOOOOOOT LOL haha then I can count down 366 days till I can get my L… that is gonna be soooooooo cool!!  There’s so many things that I wished for that has never come true.  But then there are also things that I wished for that DID come true.  See… forgetting is easy… this summer has been so… ugh ==  Promise me this will never happen again… ><  Wishing at 11:11 isn’t exactly my kind of thing… and yet I actually did.  APPARENTLY it worked… I wonder if it’s just me, or is it something that just took a little time before it DID work. 

I wonder what everyone’s been doing.  This summer has faded several things.  It could be good it could be bad.  The only thing is that friendships can’t fade, unless both of you were doubting it in the first place.  Bonds aren’t created instantly, instead you work for that mutual bond.  The bonds that I’m sharing with each of you are different.  I can feel that no matter what you guys say to me you guys are protecting me.  Others don’t see that because of what they feel about you and through previous misunderstandings.  Sometimes I sit and ponder on the fact that you were once like that.  Maybe you’ve changed.  If each birthday means a new wish I do have a new wish this year.  Someone asked if it’s worth it to use my wish on you.  I didn’t know the exact answer to that.  All I could say was that I had faith in you and there were things that we’ve gone through that led to my decision.  The wind’s blowing into my room now, it feels really refreshing.  It definitely adds to my good mood, well at least I am right now. 

Nothing else to write… at least not right now… NOT in the mood =]

~Belle

When Smexie meets… Smexie August 14, 2007

6:27pm August 14th, 2007

So… we all met at Lazy Den for our Smexie Sibling Outing… god that name is long >>;;  We ate and chat and LOL I still can’t believe what that lady said… I choked on my udon when she said that HAHAHA!!!  Jen and Jorline laughed so hard their faces were extremely red.  I think Alex got really embarrassed haha, he didn’t look like he could say much back to her.  Oh my god, Lazy Den has good Cold Milk Tea… I’m so getting more next time I drop by around Glen~!  And then there was the whole… Jorline house XD haha sorry Jorline!!  It was just that the gate was opened… so Alex and I just ran in ^^  Haha it was… fun haha to be in your house and actually know how to get in LOL everyone knows how to get in your house now.  Poor sweetie =/  Ok… bus station + bus ride + singing = people staring LOL  So many people were like stealing glances at us and stuff.  It was like “er… I hear teens singing”.  I was tempted to say something back… but decided not to… >>;;  

Rush Hour 3 was such an AWESOME MOVIE!!!  haha Alex n Jen made me steal Jorline’s seat to see how she’d react hahaha… Alex knows why >>;; haha ok ANYWAYS, we were the loudest in the whole theatre… sorta figures…  I mean… I was choking on popcorn and ready to burst out laughing when I caught my breath again.  Everyone else was like laughing so hard, I think we missed two lines of the movie == Alex got killed during the movie… xD  Jen and Jorline were grabbing onto him like someone’s gonna kill them.  There I was in the middle going, “gah… I’m dying too” because I was getting squished by those trying to do stuff over my head…  Yeah that’s right =P  Well there was a bad part to the movie, the lady got sucked into the wheel, so scary and disgusting I was like “AH” and I started to hide.  Then Alex was like talking about making the movie 15A >>;; there IS no 15A… only 14A =P So either way I still get to watch it.  Rush Hour 3 is PG so… too bad =P  I just got freaked out… end up hiding myself with Alex’s shoulder… LOL I dont remember how that worked but it did…

Mall… um… lets skip that, DINNER… silence —> talking… Drastic change == After dinner was better… group hugs, piggyback rides, camwhoring.  OO blog pics =]  I like those two xD very very nice =]  It makes me ^^  So yeah… I don’t really know how to explain what happened…  It’s too complicated… ==  Bare with me ><”

~Belle

Simple Pleasures… Simple Comforts August 11, 2007

2:09pm August 11th, 2007

So… another Badminton drop in session has gone by.  I hope that this feeling will go away soon…  That dark corner helped calm me down.  After all that I’ve been through, silences, tears, hugs, and other random ideas that has happened.  I think I’m a lot braver in how I face this situation.  I’ve been told that I’ll be fine.  I want to believe that, yet some part of me just says, “can I please give up and just move on without any of this?”  That dark corner helped me sit in silence and think.  Light shines through and I sit there hiding inside my arms with Jie Jie and Gor Gor beside me.  Your hugs warm me up, and I know I shouldn’t let you guys down.  I honestly wonder why I cried last night.  When I looked at him and talked to him I felt fine…  Nothing came out of me, until he said “just let things flow and you’ll be fine”.  That just made me want to cry, I think that’s why I ran off… into that dark corner.  Why can’t my house have a dark corner of its own?  I mean I’d so totally sit in there every day…  I like dark corners… they allow you to think and sit there to just have your own moment.  You know what would be better?  A dark corner with natural light from outside!  Letting the moon shine through and look up to see stars.  It’d be so nice if I could have a corner like that.  Then I wouldn’t have to sit there and just cry.  I can sit there to enjoy the night sky as well… =]  I honestly wonder what happen without my jie jies and gor gors… ><”  weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee  btw, mentos aren’t the best sugar rush in this world…  Chocolate bars = GOOD sugar rush!!  I want to have a better sugar rush on Monday… ^-^

Whoa yeah…. Fahrenheit PA!!  Ok… I literally DROOLED over Wu Chun’s hot pictures… It was sooooo awesome!!  He’s so hot… and his pictures are so kawaii!!  The passages that he wrote throughout his section were just refreshing.  It’s nice to hear your celeb’s point of view in situations like theirs.  Whether or not they really wrote it themselves, or had their ideas written down and re-edit by someone.  I think it’s still a great word of advice for me.  They inspire with me with what they think of their life and this world.  Something that Arron wrote is really good.  There’s always a place out there for you to forget your sorrow.  My place to forget everything is in my dark corner…  It comforts me in ways that I can never imagine.  It’s a new inspiration that I never thought they could give me.  Normally you’d sit there and be like “ok… it’s Fahrenheit, cute songs, hot faces, nice dance moves” and nothing else.  Now, it’s like, they actually have something that allows us to think and have something new at mind.  But mostly I used the Fahrenheit PA to take my mind off everything.  It had the power to make my smile again!  It makes me feel warm inside to see them smiling at me haha =D

Watching “typical Taiwan teen romance comedy dramas” or “funny HK dramas” are my guilty pleasure…  They are soooo entertaining!!  It’s what I need to just use as my pass time.  Everyone has been telling me to watching Devil Beside You for a VERY VERY long time!!  Finally I watched it and oh my god!!  Mike He is sooo hot and it’s just so much fun watching him mess around with Rainie’s head.  They make a cute on screen couple <3  The drama tells me a special message.  “Love will pull you through regardless of anything”.  I mean Rainie was a year older than Mike in the drama and Rainie’s mom was marrying Mike’s dad.  Meaning they’ll be step brother and sister soon.  Yet love still pulled them through and they are still allowed to go out with each other.  The drama puts a smile on my face because of all the things that Mike is willing to do for Rainie.  She expresses her feelings and confides in Mike about her feelings and thoughts for him.  This kind of relationship is really different.  Mike has a troubled past; however Rainie has been there for him and changed him inside out.  It’s really funny how the drama ended =]  I thought it was extremely cute and romantic <3  It just comforts me to see even couples from a drama to have their own “Happily Ever After”.

~Belle

A Sigh of Relieve August 8, 2007

2:22pm August 8th, 2007

Exactly one year until my sister gets married <3  Haha how sweet is that =]  Anyways… the past weekend was just… full of surprises.  Mostly bad ones ==”  It was such a tiring weekend.  We went from happy and giggly to everyone bursting into tears and wondering what is going on with this weekend.  It was a long weekend, we’re suppose to be laughing and hanging out.  Instead, there were misunderstandings and tears.  I got extremely worried and sad… I wouldn’t use depressed, because I had some hope in the situation.  If I had no hope whatsoever, then I would be depressed.  I have to do another shout out… so… here goes and it’s in alphabetical order… yet again. 

• Alex ‘ah gor’:  This weekend has been tough on you.  You tried to wipe the tears off my face and thought of every way to help the problem.  I really appreciate you being there even though you were probably the core of some of the problems.  I don’t regret knowing you, or anything else that has happened.  It’s just that I never thought that it would get this far, and created a misunderstanding.  I’m so glad that you’re still my ah gor ^^  It hurt me to hear that you were crying because you thought you’d lose my sis… I know how much you love her and that’s why I did my best to explain everything.  It’s all fine now, but I still want you to know that if you didn’t stop me in taking the blame it would have been so different now.  Thank you =]  By the way, thanks for lending your shoulder to me yesterday when I cried in the library.  I guess I just couldn’t hold it in anymore after you told me what happened.  Those tears were bound to come out anyways.  It was just a matter of when and where.  My tears chose to come out at the library when you told me about Tivona.  I feel like I got a whole school lifted off my shoulders now that I know things are okay.  So relieved… >w<  Thank you ah gor ^^  You know I’ll help you =]  Don’t ever hesitate to ask =P just no tickling or slapping… >-<  I still can’t believe you said you were going to slap me on Firday just because I won’t show up at the library today… gosh =P haha it’s okay I still love you ah gor!  Now about that over due piggyback ride and my two hugs… xD

• Darrell ‘ah gor’:  oh my god I LOVE YOU okay?  Don’t you ever think twice before calling me to tell me ANYTHING.  You know I’ll pick up if you call me.  I’m so glad you told me how you felt.  I promised that I will help you in any way and if telling me how you feel so it doesn’t get bottled up is a way I can help then I’ll be glad to be on the phone with you.  Ah gor, I know it’s been hard for you this weekend, but you need to understand too that life will go on.  It’s just one of those bumps in our lives that we have to go through.  Another challenge that has been left out for us to finish and learn from it.  It’ll happen all throughout our lifetime.  I’d rather you learn from it now and get it over with rather than have it happen to you some other time where it’ll hurt you even more.  I absolutely HATE seeing things like this happen to you.  I can assure you that I’ll always be here for you.  I’m all ears ^^  I’ll even give you a million hugs just so you can feel better <3  Knowing you for 9 years is something special that not everyone can have and continue to cherish.  I’d be happy to see you smile again ^^

• Jennifer ‘mutual connection sister’:  oh my that’s a long title =D  Jen, sweetie, you’ve always been there for me and now it’s my turn to be there for you.  You know I’ll always be here to listen and give you feedback.  I might not know everything that’s going on inside your head but I’ll try to understand it all as long as you’re willing to explain.  You know I’ll help you with whatever you’re having troubles with.  In this individual case, you have to talk to him about it.  Trust me, it’s good for the both of you.  You need to figure it out and find a solution together.  If you don’t find a solution soon you’ll get even more hurt by the second.  I am here 24/7 to wipe your tears off, but I’d rather sit here with nothing to see and just see you smile and laugh again.  Unless they’re tears of joy.  Do you get me?   I don’t want to see you upset!!  You know I love you!!  ^^  Promise me you’ll smile again when I see you =]

• Jorline ‘my luffly wuff’:  awww honey!!  I hate seeing you cry too ><  It’s been real tough on you and I know that you’ve been doing great trying to pull through.  You’re a strong girl and I like to see you smile and laugh.  I’m so sorry that I got emotional yesterday and I couldn’t help comfort you.  I was a mess yesterday… it could have been worse… =/  Thanks for making me smile ^^  I promise that once this is all over you’ll feel better again.  It’s already faded a lot, now it’s just up to you to forget the rest and be able to go back to school with that bright personality of yours.  It was never your fault, and emotions do take over sometimes.  My phone is always on for you and everyone else.  Call me when you need to talk.  I will pick up ^^  of course unless I’m running out of batteries or I have no minutes left… then you have to call my house xD  I assure you that I’ll help you and give you advice in any way I can if that’s what you want.  I know it’s a hard thing to get over with… you’ll be fine =]  We’ll get over it together, I promise <3  Listen to happy songs and eat comfort food ^^  Those always works =]  We’ll have some more fun this summer before it’s back to hell… haha

• Tivona ‘leng lui ga jie’:  I was worried sick when I thought you were thinking things.  I had no idea what was going through your mind because I thought you didn’t want to talk to me anymore…  Tears were dripping down and I couldn’t stop them because I never thought you wouldn’t trust me.  I know you’re fine now but the thought of it still scares me.  I don’t know if this thought will continue to haunt me… I know that you’re trying hard to just tell us all that it’s fine fine fine now!!  I totally trust that you’re fine now =]  And I’m still you’re sor mui mui ^^  It’s just that the whole weekend was so freaky for me.  Hearing such optimistic people cry and being sad over so many things.  Even someone that laughs and smiles alot like me and Alex were crying…  The impact of this misunderstanding shocked me.  I almost thought that you wouldn’t even like ah mui anymore… ><  Not sleeping for two days and instead crying for two days startled me.  The last time this happened was when I was 7… which was about 8 years ago.  I just never knew that the same feeling would come back to me.  Ga jie, promise me that you’ll never doubt me ><  I know that you get worried when I’m not the giggly me but I get even more worried when I hear that you had tears in your eyes and had doubts about those that love you so much… We all love you!!  I love you lots too <3  We’ve shared 4 years of friendship now, and there’s still so many more years ahead of us.  I’m so glad that you’re still here beside me ^^  Thank you =]  Just make me one last promise that you’ll always tell me what’s wrong… kay?

So… that’s about it for now… I think this week will be a little better.  I could sleep last night… *thank God*  and I didn’t have to cry myself to sleep…  It just feels good to be able to breathe again. 

~Belle

 

Priceless… <3 August 4, 2007

8:56pm August 4th, 2007

Wakaka another blog peeps!  So I spent all day together going around to all the Wedding stores in New Westminster and Brentwood Mall to help my sister start finding a perfect wedding dress.  There were so many and oh my god they are so pricey x_x  They range from like $300 to $2000…  I helped pick a few wedding dresses that made my sister look like a princess xD  She loved a lot of them but some of them were like ERRR OK NO… haha there were so many layers and it looked so pretty.  The designs were simple which made the long train at the back really stand out.  The dresses were just so soft that I couldn’t stop feeling them.  It was like “oh my god” all over again ==  I felt like a kid again today.  That’s when I remembered the word “priceless”, which brings me to today’s blog.

Spending a whole lifetime wondering what to do with your life is not priceless, that’s a waste of time and your life.  Buying your favourite cd isn’t priceless, that’s just more material that you’re spoiling your life with.  It’s something that you desire and not something that you need and treasure your whole life.  Something priceless can be as simple as three words like “I Love You”.  Yet, these three words get overused and is worth almost nothing now.  Why is that no one really treasures their friendship or their love with someone special?  I treasure and cherish all my friendships and my relationships with my “siblings”.  They are who made me become who I am, whether or not they influenced me.  No one changes who I am; however there are those extra sparkles from those that make me a little different every day.  Each and every friendship is unique in their own way.  There is something between you and your best friend that makes you two so close and can tell each other everything.  Then there’s those that you just don’t trust and won’t tell them anything regardless of how long you have known them for.  Those that have other friends that are so close to you that are considered brothers and sisters are luckier than a lot of others.  Not only am I not an only child but I also have so many brothers and sisters around me.  The way that you take care of each other is a lot different than taking care of a friend.  You can tell your best friend so much, yet there are still those little bits that you can’t find a perfect time to tell them.  On the other hand, when you’re talking to your ah gor or sis, you can just spill whenever and wherever.  It’s just a matter of trust.  I can so relate to this right now because, I’ve known you for how long Alex?  Like not even two weeks, and you ask me a question that others have asked me before and I can just immediately reply you ON the spot without any hesitation.  It’s just a matter that I trust you for who you are and I know that you’re asking because you care and not cause you want to blab it to the whole world.  There’s a difference to me between loyalty and caring v.s. fake and deceiveing.  I absolutely hate back stabbers and will forever continue to loathe on those that treat friendships and sibling love like dirt.  Eventually you’ll realize that karma does exist.  I totally believe in karma now ==  Like honestly, what I’ve seen others done to me it happens to them after a while and they’re the ones not laughing.  Sometimes I wonder what would this world be like without priceless love and care.  Something as simple as a token of appreciation can be called priceless, yet some people would take it for granted.  I think that’s why I love you guys so much haha.  A simple gesture can be priceless, even a 1 minute look that you get from someone can be priceless.  The way that you are shown love towards is just so powerful that you feel blown away.  In my own little world, only true love exists.  Love doesn’t have to be about a guy and a girl falling in love.  Love can be for friends that you truly care for and those that you love like a brother or a sister.  Relationship love can only last so long, and if it’s not the right one it won’t be a happy ending unless you two work for it.  I am so happy for my sister and my future brother in law.  They’re actually meant for each other… Now that leaves me and for me to find someone == Erm… I wonder when that’ll be… I promised myself that I wouldn’t fall in love for a while now… I guess that’s a correct choice eh?  Okay then… there’s still things that I’d like to say but can’t do it over the internet.  If I see you in person I shall tell you in person =] it comes with a hug too ^^ LOL love you all <3

~Belle

Caught in the Act of Caring August 3, 2007

9:43pm August 3rd, 2007

Hello peeps, it’s me again!!  Another day has gone by quicker than a blink of an eye.  I’ve had so much fun today it’s not a surprise to me that I’m this tired!  I spent all morning baking a cake with my mom which I enjoyed a hell lot.  Afterwards I got ready and left for the library to find Jorline and Alex.  We didn’t stay at the library for very long because we left to go over to Jorline’s house for her to change and get her badminton racquet.  Whatever happened was really a funny joke =P  And now I have to help Alex look out for Taiwanese homestays for Jorline’s mom haha.  Honestly I don’t know ENOUGH Taiwnese people that needs a homestay, but I’ll stay look for one ^^  Then Alex Jorline and I were like all over Coquitlam… We were at Glen, Pinetree, Library, Jorline’s house and Douglas.  I swear it was tons of hilarious moments~!  Oh my god!!  I still remember the fence that Jorline and I pushed Alex into, Jorline thought it was those electrical ones!!  Thank god it wasn’t ^^  I don’t want my brother to get hurt >_<  But that was just the beginning, badminton drop in is when I realized a couple important thoughts that I never knew would come to me until later in my life.

I wasn’t really focusing in the first part of badminton… probably of the question that ah gor you asked me.  You asked me “you haven’t forgotten about him yet have you?” and all I could reply was “…no”  I didn’t know what to say and nothing was coming to me except for that one word answer that explains nothing to anyone whatsoever.  I suppose I really don’t hide emotions that well… and the fact that I got hit with the birdie so many times help hide that hideous fact.  Normal people would think I’m just sitting out because the birdie hit me right on the head and I need to rest.  But being the big brother that he is, Alex knew what was wrong.  I think you know me more and more now… because you understand me quite well.  It’s a lil freaky =P but it doesn’t bother me anymore haha.  As simple or as complicated as my thoughts can be, you always seem to find a way to lighten up the atmosphere and make things so much easier for me.  I know you want to help, and I guess I wasn’t thinking too right when I was so quick saying no…  I appreciate you trying to help and yes the word “will” IS future tense.  I “am” forgetting and moving on, I “will” be that happy little girl that you want me to be =P  Even when I get hurt physically you’re still that wonderful ah gor messing around with my hair, patting my head and asking “are you ok?” with that serious look on your face.  One thing that I’ve really wanted to say and figured out is that of all three of my ah gors I prefer you to be my actual real life ah gor.  I mean if you were my older brother I could see myself relying on you on so many things in my life and be able to talk to you day and night.  It’s just one of those things that would make my life even more perfect.  Of course no one’s life is perfect, but it’d be one step closer for me.  Ah gor, you care about me like you care about any other friend.  But the fact that I’m your “ah mui” you take extra care with me.  I know Jen and Jorline are your “ah mui”s too and probably a lot of other girls are too.  But knowing that you remember me and is willing to be there for me makes it so much better.  Darrell and Jorline, you two make me laugh so much!!  I finally understand why you two love each other so much, and I absolutely support you two even more now!  Tivona, you make everything seem like it’s perfectly fine.  It makes me feel so much better, it’s like I can breathe again <3  What will I do without you four?!  But there’s one person that cares about me a hell lot too, that’s Jen.  You send me so many songs that I can reflect on, some good and some are bad.  All I can say is that you care about me emotionally and physically, and I love you for who you are =]  To thank you guys, I will continue to smile and laugh =P and no Alex, that doesn’t mean sugar rush == but I can if you don’t mind haha!! 

I <3 You 5 =] (lolz yes I do)

~Belle

Another Month… August 2, 2007

3:34pm August 2nd, 2007

Here we go, another month has flown by before our own eyes.  July has definitely been… well… interesting…  All I can say is that this summer has been quite eventful and then there are times where it’s just been, well, a bit depressing.  As optimistic and hyper as I can get, there are just down times where I honestly need a sugar rush and pray for certain people to disappear before my own two eyes.  Lets do a small July recap eh?

July 5th – 8th:  I was gone to Alberta for a few days.  It was a memorable place to visit and it was absolutely refreshing to be away for some fresh air and some recharging time.  I knew that a lot of people were like “oh my god where’s Belinda she’s not online”, due to the fact that I’m always online =] haha!  It’s nice to know that I was missed =P but then again I needed that vacation time… regardless of the fact that it was just a short four days.  For me, it was enough time to recharge and think through many incidents that has happened for the several weeks that has gone by.

July 16th:  We all went out to watch Harry Potter 5, that movie totally changed my life (just kidding)~!  But it was a good movie!!  Of course it could have been WAY better… but for a Harry Potter fan like myself… it’s good enough =P  Sometimes I wonder what would happen if the movie was different.  But thanks to my “Harry Potter dream” it was just so fun to watch the actual movie (lol Jen). 

July 19th:  Wilfred Ken and I went over to Eugene’s house to hang out and play pool.  I owned you guys!! Don’t deny it =P my first cue and I sent two balls into the same pocket!!  Fear me!! (haha, just kidding)~!  It was fun and I am so thankful that we did hang out because if I didn’t… I’d break down again… That’s just not cool…

July 21st:  Metro day!!  There’s no need to say more about today… I mean honestly… if you were there you’d know how much FUN it was and how the day ended.  There were smiles, tears, laughter, yawning and definitely arguments that broke through.  However, it’s all over now!!  We’re all happy again so… what’s the point =]  I got my Harry Potter 7 book that day too… (haha) it was such an awesome book!!

July 23rd:  Finished Harry Potter 7!!  I can NOT tell you guys how great this book is!! ^^ It’s such an adventure and there were tears when I read it… don’t ask LOL you’ll get it when you read it =] (looks around)  I really loved this book ^^ The ending… well Alex and I thought the ending was expected but probably not the best ending ever.  It’s was fun to read though… I mean who’d ever think that Hermione would really marry Ron… (HAHA)

July 25th:  Um… something that was important to me came to an end.  A hard time that I had to get through… I’m fine now just in case some of you still ask me how I am like every second day (coughAlexcough) I’m not saying that the caring part is a bad thing just to reassure you guys that I’m happy again!  As my “ah gor” agrees I am an optimistic girl xD Life has to go on and it’s just another part of my life that I have to go through!  God puts us through a lot of challenges, and this is just another one that I have to get through by myself without asking other people for help.  I know that he’s not the right one if this happens… even if he is the right one then fate will bring us back.  (Haha) Yes I’m a weird girl like that… but you’ve got to admit that it’s true =P

There’s my little July write up… um, I think my next blog is going to be a little different, it’s not going to be a write up about what’s been going on.  It’ll be an appreciation blog, for those that I love <3  I have so much to write, I don’t even know where to start.

~Belle

A Token of Appreciation August 2, 2007

8:18pm August 2nd, 2007

Whoa!  Two blogs in one day!  A little bored and I do have something totally different to write about and it’ll take a while too so, I might as well pour it all out now.  There are a couple of rules that I’ve learnt in my whole life.  Positive as I am, I know and can feel that there are many more coming my way.  Perhaps you ask why I have that very thought.  All I can say is that I’ve experienced it and I know it when it arrives.  It’s almost like every mother can feel it when their children get hurt.  I think it’s safe to say that I know when to expect it.  After all the series of events that I have gone through and the paths that I have travelled on, I met many excellent human beings ^^  Thank you does not cut it, because you guys have been more than just a friend to me.  Most of you are my “siblings” or really best friends.  I trust you guys and appreciate you being there <3  So now here’s a token of appreciation for each of you individually and in alphabetical order~!

• Alex Tseng:  someone that I’ve known since July 25th 2007.  Even close friends that I’ve known for 10 years like Lawrence thought I’ve known Alex for longer because we seem so close.  Crazy how life works eh?  You’re my ah gor and yet I’ve told you lots that apparently has not been told to others like Lawrence or Darrell until I brought it up unexpectedly.  If ah gor, you, weren’t going out with Tivona right now, I would never have gotten to know someone as genuine and caring like you.  The day I met you was the day that I turned back to single.  You cared about me and told me that I’ll be fine.  Within the second day you started calling me ah mui.  You have no idea how much I appreciate you being my ah gor.  The fact that my ah gor isn’t alive and with me makes me love you three ah gors even more.  Because I know that if he was with me… every day of my life, he’ll be everything like you!  You wipe tears off my face, tell me jokes when I’m bored, and most important of all no matter how many times you tease me or play jokes on me you’ll know exactly when to stop.  You know that I’m a typical asian girl and I go crazy over celebrities and hot guys, but you never minded.  As someone’s ah gor you respect every bit of who I am and not by the outside.  Alex, you never judge by what you see on the cover and by what you understand on the inside.  I’ve spent time to get to know you and you’ve spent time to know me better.  I find it exciting when I go online each day and talk to you just cause you surprise me with something new every day.  You’re an awesome ah gor, and without you I don’t think I could have stopped my tears as fast as I hoped to.  Your jokes brighten up my day and you give me hilarious reactions that I’ll never forget =] Thank you <3  I know you’ll continue to be there for me and of course you better be extra caring to Tivona =] I can sense it if you’re not!! ^^ You’re everything I ask for in a brother, and as you’re little sister, I have to say this: “I love you brother!!”  Brother + Sister Love <3

• Billy Leung:  oh my!!  Ah gor I’ve known you since I was 6 =]  Although the days that I’ve gotten to be in your class was short, it was still memorable.  We share our feelings and you know how to care for your younger sister.  I know I differ from Mimi well of course I do, she’s older =P  However, I can’t say enough thanks to you over the last three years.  You have given me non stop encouragement and pushed me forward to persue what I have desired the most.  Although I succeeded and failed in several different areas but I’ve learnt from all my rights and wrongs.  You must be thinking why I’m typing this… There are just no words to describe how ah gor has been taking care of me for the last couple of years.  No matter when and where you’ll listen to what I have to say and until I’m done you’ll give me feedback.  Truthful feedback too, mind you!  Billy, you tell me whether or not you’ll be able to give me correct advice but you still attempt to so you don’t disappoint me.  The truth is whether or not you give me advice I’ll still appreciate you being there and listening to what has been troubling me.  I understand that being in separate schools have made life harder on the two of us because I can’t talk to you and see you as often.  That’s where technology comes in ^^  Ganbatte ah gor =]

• Darrell Lau:  my third ah gor!!  I just realized that as I go in alphabetical order, the age is the same too haha… you’re the third brother that I have =]  The many times that we’ve been teasing each other, holding a grudge against each other and the moments that totally changed our lives… well mine for sure!  You’ve always been there regardless of the fact that we’re both sort of stubborn so we don’t listen to each other quite as often as we should.  There are times where we just don’t want to accept the fact that we’re wrong, but in the end we still do =]  Gr 6/7 was a really… funny year for me and you… we got to know each other…again =P and then we had the funniest thing happen to us.  Gr 7/8 was just…. a huge mess haha you and I were in the same chinese class and boy was that crazy.  You tried to run after me with a chalk brush == if you still remember that… >>;; I was trying to run away lol oh well at least you stopped in the end!!  Gr 8/9 okay I don’t think I should start but haha it was a hilarious year!!  Even though the fact that you were going to Glen was like tattooed to my brain it sort of became something that I didn’t care about.  It was like “it doesn’t matter where ah gor is, he’s still ‘here’”  so… yeah!!  You tease me a hell lot and honestly I wish you’d stop sometimes ==  Then again you make me laugh, so it doesn’t annoy me that much =P  What can I say?  You’re a typical kind of brother =P  You mess around with my brain and then you decide to be a nice brother and be totally caring.  It makes me feel really protected and safe when you show off the caring big brother side of you.  Ah gor, thanks ^^

• Jennifer So:  oh my god you’re like this hyper active cousin or friend that I’ve never gotten to know until now!  You know exactly how I feel and the last few months that I’ve gotten to know you better was awesome =]  Fahrenheit was like our main topic all the time.  Then there were boys <3 and last but not least our fangirling msn convos.  I have to tell you that you have been nothing but really nice.  You have confided in me that you have done certain things that isn’t to the best of what I had hoped to have happened but that’s in the past.  I’d rather focus on our present friendship and our future friendship together.  You’re an awesome honger girl that I absolutely love.  You understand how I feel and it doesn’t take you long to figure out what I have on my mind.  Whatever troubles me is written all over my face because I’m not a girl that can hide all my emotions.  I’m just not the kind that can act in front of others because I know for a fact that being true to myself is the best way to life.  We’ve both gone through and passed so many challenges that God has given us.  What else can we do to repay him than live a better life?  You know that it’s great to have an awesome friend like you, we share so much in common it’s like having another sister.  Of course there’s more to us than friendship and sister-like love.  The times that you’ve helped me get through the ups and downs of my life.  Thank you for dedicating that Fiona song to me.  “Next time…next time” is really a song that I need right now.  Just because it screwed up by itself this time doesn’t mean that it’ll get screwed up next time =]  I’ll wait for the next time to come on its own and I’m sure that you’ll find someone that you also truly love and care for you the same way that you care about others that you love!  I truly wish you all the best ^^  You brighten up my day and you give me hope that I need <3  There’s more than friendship between us.  We have a mutual connection ^^

• Jorline Ou:  haha you’re a funny girl!!  The moment I met you I knew it’d be really different.  You sound mature and you are mature but you know how to have fun when it’s relaxing time.  It’s so refreshing around you!  Probably because we’re 95% match in personality!!  We think and do almost the same things and it doesn’t surprise me that I enjoy your company more and more.  Dating my ah gor must be something that you thought you’d never do haha you two seem so different yet when i see you two together it’s like “whoa it works and it sounds awfually sweet too”  You two make me giggle like honestly!!  You act like a big sister around me too =] Like last Friday July 27th, 2007 I had a small break down at Badminton drop in and you helped me and told me that everything would be fine.  And as you promised everything’s turning out great again ^^  I can’t thank you enough for that hug that you gave me on Friday.  That hug felt reassuring and I could tell that you and Darrell wanted me to feel better and have that smile on my face again that I always had.  It’s hard being all giggly 24/7 but then when I talk to you on msn it’s like it’s possible because you’re so easy going.  I understand what you’re thinking about and I can totally relate to your problem.  Remember that time where you were worrying about ah gor and you just felt annoyed and frustrated?  I knew how you felt and I actually knew how put myself in your shoes because the things that we said to each other was the exact same as it was in our minds.  You’re a cheerful person that has been a pleasure to be with and our friendship will continue for a long time, even forever =]  Thank you for making me smile again when I was upset and I can’t tell you how much I love being around you ^^

• Tivona Tai:  ga jie!!!  My lovely adorable caring sister =] Honestly, what would I do without you?  From the moment I met you in Gr 6/7 you’ve been nothing but a caring and totally honest sister to me.  You persuaded me to live my dreams and understand who I am and what I want to do and go for it.  There’s never anything wrong with what you’ve told me to do.  Your act of kindness shows through your smile ^^  You’re a protective sister that listens to whatever I have to say and gives me advice from a girl’s point of view… especially with three ah gors I really need a girl like you to balance out my life!!  You’re a perfect sister and if you really were my sister that’d be cool too!!  There are times in my life where I could only tell you things, problems that the guys would never understand in a million years and could never give me normal feedback that I could use and not get into deep trouble with.  Your mature level helps with my hyperness ^^  I love how I got to know you and to tell you something that I don’t tell you often, I wish I got to know you a long time ago so that our friendship and sister love could have lasted even longer.  We’re still sisters for years to come and I don’t know what I’d do without you <3  You fell in love with Vanness and Xiao Zhu with me (lol sorry Alex haha) and it’s so much fun telling you about my dreams =]  The times where we joke around and talk about really random stuff on msn were priceless!  You’re a pretty girl and as your big toy (lol)  I’m glad that your the one pinching me and hugging me haha <3  I love you forever ga jie!!

Well… there’s my token of appreciation for those that I care about a lot now and forever.  More to come meaning more memories that I’ll keep in my heart.  Friendships and sibling love locked up tight inside of me. 

One last thing to say to all of you:  I love you guys <3

~Belle